?As life goes on I’m starting to learn more and more about responsibility
I realize everything I do is affecting the people around me
So I want to take this time out and apologize for things I have done
And things that have not occurred yet
And the things they don’t want to take responsibility for,?
lyric from ?Sorry, Blame it on Me?
It has been my first time ever to write such a personal resolution for year-end. Maybe new environment, situation, and people surrounding me make me think. The above Akon?s quote help to express my feeling!
My only New Year Wish:
Please do not take my friend?s life*! His two young kids? need him to call them ?Son?!
*Sou Saren, an active co-founder of Youth Network for Change is now at critical stage for live survival after car accident.
My 2010 Resolution:
- Strengthen Youth Network for Change on two main themes: Youth and Civic Responsibility ( of course with cooperation from all my active friends)
- Keep advocating for Freedom of Expression through blogging and social discussion
- Start my career with good governance, poverty reduction, peace and human rights analysis ( Teaching maybe a part of my carrer interest. I start to love teaching though i hate to do this job when i was in high school. I remember one of my Khmer Literature Teacher asked me to become Teacher, then i harsly replied him ?Sorry, No?)
- Try to balance my social and family time managment (I asked my mum why she did not cry when I visited home after my whole year stay in Japan, she said ?nothing is strange between when i was at home or in Japan! Sorry, i rarely spent time at home, Mum)
- Reread my favorite quote once a day: “When you blame others, you give up your power to change.” Another new quote taken from my friend, Tharum?s facebook status posted “I won the nickname the great communicator. But I never thought it was my style that made a difference? it was the content. I wasn’t a great communicator, but I communicated great things.” ~ Ronald Reagan – 1911?2004.
- Should be more matured (my brother, Ou Virak, chatted with me and said that I am too naive!)
- Stop comment sad things on Facebook while i feel bored (my brother, Sophy, asked me what wrong with me, I said nothing I just want to post something to attract for his reply. He said ?Crazy?!)
My 2009 Reflection:
- Learn to live apart from my beloved family, friends, and country: I always wish i could travel around the world, studying or working for a few period oversea. But when time arrived that i was selected to study in Japan, my heart was mixed with sad (in leaving my beloved surrounding) and joy (of staying in the country i dreamed to visit the most). I still miss my every weekend?s meeting with my Youth Network friends, some weekend?s extra work staying at office alone or with other co-workers, my mummy?s cook and special desserts, time with my sister, my brother and papa complains of keeping them waiting so long (when they picked me up), last but not least my comfortable room with loud music turned on. I have to admit that I miss all of them badly until now.
- Workaholic is a bad habit, but still good to me: Some people like to drink so much, but they do not get drunk, while I was really drunk with work though i did not drink. My first half year in Japan was not easy since i could not adapt to the study environment. It does not mean the study was hard, but i could not keep myself free without doing something related to my work. So I kept mailing around asking my former place if i can be useful asset for their work allocation (of course without paid). After awhile, I have become the Guest Commentary and recently i am invited to be contributing author for Global Voice adding up to my last academic year in wrap up my thesis. Many work i can load, the more catalyze to push me work more hard. Without such load, I will become procrastinator.
- Leave comfort zone and take adventure: I like reading news, but I dislike to read history. So I found myself busy in traveling around to expose to new culture and daily livelihood in Japanese communities. I like school visit program which i can capture new idea and civic educational tool to share with my Cambodian fellows and blog readers. For party, I found it fun during the first semester, but then i tried to avoid it since i found it irrelevant. Some friends said that my second home in Japan, beside the dormitory, is study room. I cannot deny this accusation. Sorry IUJ‘s friends for my absence in many parties.
- Love will not hurt if we understand love: I do believe that ?love = mutual care, give (with no benefit oriented thinking), being a trust partner.? It apply to all kinds of love including parents? love, friends, and life-partner.
If i would miss anything, i would glad if my friends can recall for and advise me!
All the best Sophiep, keep up yor good work..you learnt lot in 2009 and hope 2010 will also add many more values to you.
this is probably 1 of the most personal n emotional notes i ever read. U’re inspiring me 2 do the same…
My friend now rests in Peace! First i think my new year wish and resolution was posted so early, but i think it is too late to make it appeal to Buddha/God/miracle power to help your life.
My last message for him: You left us without even saying a word and did not wait to meet me! I do not know what you were thinking, but i am really suffering and wanna say “I miss you, Pu Ren”!
Sorry to hear about ur friend’s death…! The law of 90/10 applies to every life… Maybe we should do something in his memory…
I’m sorry to hear about your friend’s death. He rests in peace now. The only thing we can do is praying for him to go to heavenly place according to our believe and religion. No one indeed can escape from death. We are born–we must die.
Keep doing your best work.
I guess that in a few decades there will be Georges-W Bushs quote.
History has no memory.
Interesting quote. But can you elaborate a bit on how can history has no memory? If it is history, then i supposed there should be memory ;D
I’m so sorry to reply so late. I’ve been quite busy these last few weeks.
I’ll try to developpe what I’ve written even if it is not easy for me because I am French speaking and me English is really poor.
Well, let’s say that History is not what we use to remember, using our human memory. It is what society decide to retain of the past. Why do France talk so little bout the algerian war ? Why young Cambodians know so little about the Khmer Rouge era ? The society and the government have chosen not to talk, and thus to teach the people, especially the younger ones, bout what have happened and how things would turned that bad.
What if all those who had lived one part on the events never ever talked about what they have lived ? The younger generations would never know wht have happend.
Now, even when we have learned the facts, as most of us have done at school, we still cannot anticipate things and prevent the horrible things to happen.
…I dont know I managed to explain clearly. If only you speak French !
I think you have explain me well. Now i got your point “History has no memory.” You taught me a great lesson today. Thanks you.
Happy Khmer New Year!
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